You're in the car, or cleaning your house, or in the shower and you're listening to that song. It's that song that makes you think "Holy shit. I wish I was in this band". All this week we will be sharing the songs that make us think the same thing.
I read somewhere that the music you listen to around age 13 becomes the music that shapes your taste from that point forward. So basically I'm bound to loving emo music and pop punk for the rest of my life, and I don't have any real issue with that.
In middle school and high school, the music that mattered to me was sung by angsty boys about suburban towns and girls who never stuck around. As I've gotten older my tastes have obviously matured, except not really actually. My favorite band is habitually vaguely depressing, and if I hear a song and it makes me yearn for a breakup because it would make for a DAMN good soundtrack to fall apart to, I'm sold. It's not all about the sad stuff, but just in general if there's a hint of the singer being unsatisfied paired with an upbeat guitar riff somewhere in there I'm all about it. Unhealthy? Probably. Emotionally stimulating? Totally.
Music always sticks with a moment, so those emo and pop punk bands that were the soundtrack to my suburban life are tightly woven to my life's history a decade ago. I can't untangle those songs from those Converse and those boyfriends and those nights feeling like nothing made sense and I'd never be happy.
Good news if anyone reading this is an angsty as fuck 16 year old: yeah sure things don't make sense often even in adulthood, but you grow out of at least some of your self-imposed despair.
If I could be in one band today, right in this moment, it would be Modern Baseball.
Embarrassing fact: I stumbled upon this band because I noticed a guy who had recently "done me wrong" was listening to them thanks to the lurking machine of Spotify. I gave them a listen and it was like being shoved into a Deloreon. Except, not. Time travel to the passenger seat of my high school best friend's blue beater of a car lasted about 2 songs before I realized I loved this pop punk band for a different reason - sure they made me nostalgic, but it was different. They made me feel young and desperate for fun and like it was okay if things were shitty.
This band sounds like what it's like to be young. Failed flirtations, being too drunk but continuing on with the night anyway, growing up but still being a little stuck in the past. Modern Baseball makes me feel okay that sometimes I make out with guys who never ask me out for a second date. Modern Baseball makes me feel okay that sometimes I drink too much and end up waking up across town on a friend's couch. Modern Baseball makes me feel okay that sometimes I go on a Facebook stalking bender centered around someone who broke up with me seven years ago.
Basically, Modern Baseball is a band I cannot get enough of because they make the things I consider my flaws acceptable. The music you love and becomes a part of your life's story is the kind of thing that validates your experiences, and also sort of pats you on the back to remind you some other person is in these moments with you too. Modern Baseball probably doesn't need a tambourine player, but the next time they play my city I'll sing along in the crowd like I was on stage facing a microphone.