Name: Frances The Guy Who Never Talks
Message: I'm terrified of talking to people, in fact it feels like I have to punch every single word out of my mouth sometimes. And when I am talking it feels like I'm acting, or something. Like I'm playing a character. Cause sometimes I can talk at great length, or goof around and be loud, but in those instances it feels like I'm just acting. So, how do normal people interact? Am I doing it the right way, or is my brain filled with insane?
Being normal is overrated! Seriously, who do you know that’s normal? And I feel like I’m acting all day long at work. Which, I kind of am. I certainly communicate differently with coworkers, my friends, my family, my boyfriend, and even my pet. We’re all acting, in a way.
As an anxious person, I think very quickly. I also speak quickly. Sometimes I’m thinking faster than I’m speaking and all the words get jumbled up when they come out.
Also, I overshare.
Also, sometimes I say something that I think is going to be funny but then it’s definitely not funny at all.
Also, I tend to vomit my feelings when in an emotional state or I have 3 glasses of wine or 1.5 margaritas, or a pitcher of sangria.
What I’m trying to say is, I’m not quite sure how normal people interact. But I have a feeling it’s pretty boring. They probably talk about the weather and don’t actually get excited about anything besides "March Madness". And who wants that kind of life? Yeah, I might feel the need to loudly complain that my armpits are itchy at inappropriate moments. I may bomb a few jokes. And I most certainly will ugly cry at any wedding I ever attend. But I am who I am, and you are who you are. Let your freak flag fly!
Honestly though, if you prefer to keep the crazy in, then go for it. I understand that. But you can’t hide anything for that long. Be yourself and people will embrace it. If they don’t they’re probably not worth talking to. Unless it’s your boss or a police officer or someone offering you lots of money. -T
REWIND to this...
Starsailor - "Silence is Easy": This song. THIS SONG. "Silence is easy. It just becomes me." Yup. Yeah. I got into this band in college and they make me feel kind of weird because I can remember listening to them at emotional moments and it makes me a little nauseous. But I still love it. Also, the video gives me the chills in a super anti-social way. Check it out and cheer up, homeboy!